My Severely Autistic Son DOES Have A Bright Future

Six and a half years ago when I took my toddler to a clinic and left with a diagnosis of severe non verbal autism , pica and global developmental delay my heart broke. It didn’t end there either. Six months later he was diagnosed with a progressive genetic condition. A year later he added vision impairment to his list. At seven he added an optic glioma, a form of brain tumour and at nine, epilepsy.

As I write this he is ten, with the developmental age of a one year old, the speech of a nine month old baby (he is non verbal), he isn’t yet potty trained and requires round the clock care. He has to be medicated twice daily to keep major seizures at bay. He needs six monthly MRI tests to monitor his brain tumours.

On paper his future doesn’t look good.

I have spent so much time breaking my heart for my son and all he will miss in life. He likely won’t fall in love, get married, have a family, have a job, learn to drive, attend college or university or live independently; all the things parents expect from their children as they grow. He can’t yet write his name, he’s never attended mainstream education and his care needs are so high I have been his full time carer since he was born.

So given all that information how can I possibly say my son has a bright future?

Quite simply this: Quality of life isn’t determined by what other people think.

I thought my child should find a partner, perhaps have a family of his own, get a job, drive, contribute to society in some way and make a difference. I thought he should go to school, perhaps onto college or university then find happiness and fulfilment in a career of his choice.

But who says any of this is a bright future? Who determines these things as quality of life?

In actual fact my son has an amazing future ahead of him, one very different to how I imagined, but even more incredible!

He’s never going to carry the burden of responsibility so he won’t stress about interest rates, taxes, mortgages or company shares.

He’s never going to become embroiled in complex relationships so won’t experience the heartache of divorce or family breakups.

He will remain blissfully sheltered from many of the awful things that life carries with it like murder, abuse, political turmoil, homelessness, drugs or wars.

His simple life will be the envy of many.

His needs will be met, either by carers or myself, for as long as I live. He has a sister who adores him and who I know will do all she can to make sure he is looked after too.

He will spend his future not in the drudgery and stress of daily commutes to work or long shifts but in doing what he loves most. He’ll be taken swimming, the cinema, cafes, shops, garden centres and day trips. It will be like he’s retired without ever having to have done the fifty plus years employment first.

Clothes and food will be provided for him. Other people will arrange whatever finances are required, drive him or support him in transport and make sure he is happy and well.

His future is, in fact, what so many of us would dream of. He will watch what he wants on TV, explore the world via google street map and see family often.

He will, as he already does, be surrounded by love, respect and support.

I’ll take him to as many lifts as he wants because his years of education will be complete.

I am not deluded. I am not just looking at life from rose tinted glasses. I am fully aware that my son will always need a huge level of care and that I may not always be around to give him that. I, more than anyone, understand how vulnerable and naive he is and always will be. I know i will fight budget cuts, endless complex forms to have control of his finances and health needs and that I will likely get little to no respite when he passes from children’s care teams to adult care teams.

This won’t be easy for ME but for HIM the future is bright.

We are so quick as a society to assume that anyone with learning disabilities, severe autism or complex needs is a burden. We see their quality of life as somehow less because it doesn’t follow the tradition path of higher education, work and raising the next generation. We see their inability to pay taxes as somehow awful and view them as beneath others.

My son, and thousands of others, walk a different path in life. They face a future quite different to that which we see as ‘normal’. Yet their future, their existence, their needs, are not in any way less or second class.

My severely autistic son’s future is full of life, love and fulfilment. That to me is the epitome of a bright future and quality of life.

I am looking forward to it and if he understood what the future was I know he would be excited too.

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11 thoughts on “My Severely Autistic Son DOES Have A Bright Future

  1. I have high functioning autism and at 33, aside from going to university, I have not achieved any of those things you list as typical expectations. In some ways my life is similar to the kind of life you’re envisioning for your son. It’s been a blow to my self esteem but I feel better when I don’t care what other people think and when I realize there’s not just one path to a happy, successful life and there’s not just one “correct” way to live. My own mother tries to comfort me by saying that in some ways my life is enviable.

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    • I’m the same,and live as a ‘lady of leisure’, going to gigs and a unique local cinema- I loved the film ‘Cold War’ and listening to music/reading.I am gutted about not being able to play an instrument because of severe dyspraxia (I did music at uni- or poly as it was then- also love food, clothes, and cuddling dogs. (they have a dog-friendly screening at the cinema on occasion, which I always attend,and make loads of friends! People still try to stop me going to see my favorite musician, but he stressed that I was always welcome at his gigs- and I had to get round my need to love a man by loving a dead musician- I feel very sad about him being dead, but identify with him,as he too lost a career- for different reasons. Though I’m really worried about what happens when they put me on this Universal Credit and I won’t be able to enjoy life at all.

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  2. Thank you so much for writing with such candor and REALNESS! I agree that it’s nobody’s business to determine how “a bright future” is defined. I have 3 sons, two of whom have Autism. My youngest one may need to reside with us indefinitely due to the conditions of his ASD diagnosis. I accept that this is a possibility. Do I advocate for the best education and services for him today? Absolutely! However, all the services may not be enough with regards to an independent future and that. Is. Ok. All that truly matters is that he is content with his life; he is happy and is loved and CAN LOVE. For us, this is success.

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  3. This is as always a lovely and inspiring and open minded post that makes a good case for seeing things differently to the narrow-minded way that so many people choose to. You are so right that a life of being cared for does not mean it is a bad life, just a different life. ^_^

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  4. In many ways, Izac is living in the moment. He doesn’t care about that meeting or that there is a bill which needs to be paid. He is right here and now with no worries or cares x

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  5. I’m a nurse and the wife of an autistic husband. I once cared for a little girl with cerebral palsy. She was non-verbal and required total assistance. But she was lovely. She was a very happy little girl and would smile and laugh for her caregivers. Caring for her was a joy.

    My husband is high-functioning but still has limitations. He works as a night security guard because there’s less stress involved than in many other jobs. A trip to Disneyland is not in our future. We don’t go to large extended family events as he can’t deal with large crowds. (On my mother’s side I have 18 aunts and uncles and 36 first cousins.) But we have a good life. We talk about intellectual things. We go “off the beaten path” and have fun vacations. We visit family members a few at a time. Our life may be “different” from others’, but it’s OUR life and we love it.

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  6. I am deeply touched by what you wrote. You pretty much described my son who is now 29-years-old. He now resides in a local residential home with other disabled young men on the autism spectrum. He likes his home and his caregivers. His caregivers always tell me how much they like him. They tell me that he brightens their day with his happy outlook and sense of humor. Yes, he plays tricks on them. My son also has seizures. Like you I spent years with a broken heart and such a feeling of unrelenting grief. Things are easier now as I head into the beginning of my twilight years. I am thankful to know that he will be taken care of after I am gone.

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